Mama(n)datory

I'm missing Perth.
The fresh air, the clear blue sky, the company.
The serenity.

Even the driving experience.

People normally describe Perth as a dead town, or a town for retirees.
Nothing fancy, no interesting shenanigans.

That's to them.
And that's to me.
Very basic, minimalistic.
No drmatic huhas.

I love Perth as is.
I felt such calm and at peace in Perth.

I need that lifestyle.
And to achieve that, I need to migrate.

But I doubt that'll ever happen.
But I'll work my way there, eventually, hopefully.

Here's just too chaotic.
I need to set myself free..

September.
Again, it's haze season in Malaysia.

This time around, the haze hits me(and most people) bad. My skin's gotten dry like, super dry. I  guess I over exfoliated my skin because I felt super icky with the dirty polluted dry air that touches my skin.

It has been irritated since early of the month. It's now flaky, day 4. Itchy and redness, day 14? The sensitivity level of my skin has abruptly worsen, just within two weeks.

The haze is just too bad, I even forbid my daughter from going to school. Even the ministry has now decided to close school session for 3 consecutive days this week.

Why isn't anyone in the goverment doing anything to solve this issue, I wonder. It's been years, every September. Years!

Pain. Mood swings. Irritated. Sadness.

There are some (people and times) who wouldn't be in agreement with you, with your choice (actions or words). They'd go against you no matter how you wish to stand on your own ground, they will always want to win the battle. Macam kacau sangat hidup diorang ni dengan your existence.

I've not been getting enough sleep.

Mayesa hasn't been feeling well for the past few days. Life of a mother, eh.. whenever the child is unwell, you'll definitely be a sleepless mother (re:zombie) - constantly waking up to check on your sick child.

I've been cranky just as she is, snapping at almost everything that irritates me. A sleepless mother, is a monster mother; I'm sure most of you can relate to this, yes?

So I took a day off of motherhood yesterday. Each of us needs this, trust me just to redeem back a little sanity for yourself. If you haven't gotten any, please consider requesting it from your spouse. You may thank me later.

I went for an afternoon snacking session with my girl friend instead of supposedly joining a karaoke session with another group of friends that I was just too lazy tired to drive out of the neighborhood. Three hours of solo shopping, and another two hours of late night coffee with yet another girl friend.

I needed those. I feel refreshed.

But this gloomy weather ain't helping much. My mood is still as cloudy as it is today, and am longing for even more sleep, deep sleep without any disturbance.

But the girls. The girls are wide awake and full of energy. I need to tire them out so we could all have a shut eye together at once later on.

So here we are, for lunch and for hours of playtime.

Play. Play. Playyyyy. Then we sleep.

Oh how I wish it really does raining mocha. I'd sing and dance in the rain, twirling around gleefully from the increasing heart rate from gulping way too much caffeine into my system.

It's definitely a nice weather change, from way too bright and sunny to this gloomy chilly rainy season. Just that we're currently in the midst of another long school break and it's difficult for me to plan outings with my two girls in this weather. Doesn't really help either with the laundry loads; although we own a dryer at home I still don't make a full use of it. I'd only run it for half an hour at most and continue to dry the loads under the hot sun. I'm just still old school that way (mainly I don't want to ruin our clothes by spinning them too long in the dryer, especially husband's workwear that consists mostly of dryfit material)


I am currently at McDonalds with my girls for some teatime munch and a little playtime. Mayesa's been bragging me to bring her to the playground almost every afternoon, but it's either she takes a long afternoon nap or the weather does not permit us.

They're having fun at the play area now while I sit down sipping hot mocha whilst looking after them through this somewhat dirty window pane.

Tomorrow's another day off from school and I've no clue what's in plan for tomorrow just yet. Too dull to stay home yet too broke to go anywhere.

Three days of school next, and another three more days of break. Like...urghhh what are we going to do then???